past my bedtime

darn.

i wanted to enter a good journal entry on here, but ever since i've started working, i've already been exhausted and just lacking enough time in the day to do everything i want to get done.

example: i taped my "king of the jungle" audition tape but have yet to transfer it and edit it onto a VHS tape instead of Hi-8. it's due the 29th. can anybody say "overnight shipping"??

i wanted to update on how the job is doing but well, the job takes up nearly every hour of daylight there is. literally. yikes, i really don't know what i got myself into, and what to do about it.

good: job is boring office stuff now, but if i suck it up for a while i am very sure that it may be the most monetarily and professionally rewarding job i could ever had. i'll explain later, but for some reason boss really has taken me under his wing and wants to teach me how to be the jiggy bomb of environmental restoration and consulting. so not only is it right up my alley degree-wise, but it could also pay big $$$. did i mention i now officially have an "hourly rate" that we charge people when i work on a project for them? i've never had my own hourly rate for clients (except when i'm doing my ho-thang of course)!! i feel like i've grown because of this. (ha! just being a smart ass again)

bad: i'm not cut out to be the secretary type. if you know anything about human evolution, i am wholeheartedly convinced that i am decended from the hunter type, as opposed to the farmer type. i honestly read something once that ADHD might actually be a naturally selected-for trait in early humans, because being restless, full of energy, yadda yadda (cant remember,  if i find it i'll link to it) is a result of the hunter-type having to constantly live a nomadic, active life; whereas farmers settled down. i know i'm explaining it poorly but i will make an effort to find it, if i ever get that animal planet tape done. ;)

UPDATE: here's the link for one of the ADHD evolution essays i've read. dont ask how scientifically based it is, because i dont know and i dont care. its just neat to think about. ;)

where was i? oh yeah, bad: i'm not a good secretary. i was not meant to sit down - ESPECIALLY indoors all day. and i'm mostly by myself; we work at boss' home, so he usually goes upstairs to his living room to make phone calls while i sit in the basement by myself. fortunately he has dogs i can play with, and i even got a radio, but still - lisa is social by nature. i mean, people are stupid and sometimes bother me greatly, but i love being around them. i'm sure somebody out there understands. ;)

it's also bad because it is nearly 120 miles round trip from work. over an hour drive each way. throw in a healthy dose of ann arbor stupid-drivers and my impatient, road-rage-prone Aries personality, and voila! instant exhausted, ticked off lisa blaring a certain ludacris song while trying to avoid the black cloud coming from a beat-up old toyota going 15 under the limit in the fast lane, strategically driving next to a person in the slow lane so you can never pass. and i get off work fairly late, so i dont even get home til nearly 6. i miss the days when i worked 2 miles from my house and was home by 4:10. it's wearing on me already, believe it or not. it is stressful to have such a commute, have to sit so long in the car, and then sit in front of the computer. i'm usually a stress-free person but this kind of couped up boredom is probably the hardest thing for me to cope with. i'd rather work 10 hr days outside in extreme weather hiking up and down mountains than sit in front of a computer for 4 hours... oh wait, that's what i did in colorado, and i loved it. 'nuff said.

so much for keeping this short. congrats to heather for filling her pockets with our money at this evening's poker night! hopefully i will see tara this weekend, and kevin, beth and i were going to go climbing until we realized that planet rock is closed for a competition this weekend. woops.

blab blab blab. time for bed. had lots of crazy dreams lately, but one recurring one has got me freaked out. recurring dreams for me do sometimes have a sort of clairvoiyant abilities it seems, it hasn't happened in so long but this time, i'm not so sure. three times in the past 2 weeks, i had dreams about marc that i dont actually remember what happens in them, but i do know that when i wake up i know something bad is goign to happen to him. not to him, as in physically, but someone close to him and it will hurt him emotionally. i mean, i have dreams when people die and stuff, but i never have dreams when i wake up genuinely sorrowful and worried and full of dread. it hasn't happened in a week, but the last time it happened i just woke up and knew something bad was on its way. ireally hope it's just my imagination running wild. marc's one of those people who does truly seem like he has some special kind of "luck" or someone/something watching over him (he's nearly died a few times - appendix, car crash i think - but crazy things happen and it all turns out ok), unlike anyone i've ever met. very intruiging. he also believes that if something happens, it was meant to be - fate, i guess. hope his luck isn't running out, and i hope if somethign does happen it has nothing to do with his son.

wonder what i'll dream tonite. more zombies and witch heads trying to possess me?